You aren`t alone

As plus size women people think we have our share of put downs. A lot of people think we can`t do anything. I worked with one women, I did cleaning at

On being Diabetic

For a start I had a problem with chocolate that was my addiction. Although for the first couple of years before I became diabetic I didn`t touch as much. But my weight was spiraling out of control. I was getting worried. I was getting heavier and heavier and I didn`t seem to be able to do anything about it. A friend of mine was staying with me and he didn`t watch his weight, so that didn`t really encourage me. Before I became diabetic I felt weak and felt as if I was going to pass out. My partner had died, so I went along to the doctor and had blood tests. The receptionist rang me and said: "Come and get your iron tablets and metformin." I went cold. I was diabetic, at least I must be." I gathered I was low on iron but being diabetic. I never thought it would happen to me. Everyone had warned me.

It couldn`t have happened on a worse day. My partners Brithday and then I heard about my little kitten . He had been found dead and was in the container in the allotment. So it wasn`t the happiest day of my life. I needed my little kitten. Even though I had more cats, this one used to be lovely just to hold him in my arms and feel him breathing.These things happened and I got comfort with my other cats, but I still hurt inside.

Before I found out I was diabetic I had my last lot of chocolate cake with cream and I devoured every minute of it. All that smooth chocolate almost melting in my mouth. Beautiful.

To this day I haven`t touched chocolate. Well tell a lie. My friend two christmases ago brought me some malteasers. Well instead of lasting me a night I made them last three weeks.  There is no point chancing it as I was scared of the complications. 

My first days as a diabetic were scary. I didn`t know the best way to eat. I thought I could eat as I did. I don`t mean fattening things. But I used to eat at twelve midday and used to end up going low and having hypos because I ate at this time. So I quickly realised I had to eat at nine and start a new regime.

The first few months I managed to lose weight which I was pleased about. It was coming off. I went from 19st  13 to 16st 13. I was pleased and then I began to relax again and the weight has piled on. I am nowhere near as heavy as I was, but now I must work hard to 

Are we aliens from Mars?

The attitudes of people. Honestly. The insults us plus size people get. Does the slim population think we are aliens? I mean sometimes when you walk down the road I often think that I have grown an extra head, or am I walking in the nude. Have I got green skin, or am I walking in the nude? No I am just being me overweight, minding my own business, then someone shouts FAT BITCH. I hold my head high and instead of being silent and ignoring them, I say: "look in the mirror at yourself, you skeleton with knickers."

Peoples attitudes had an effect on me. Instead of it maybe encouraging me to loose weight. It had the opposite effect I thought why should I bother? I didn`t take any notice of myself being overweight.  Nobody was going to shame me into losing weight. I haven`t got snakes on my head like medusa, or only one eye. I was human, after all had feelings and ideas like the next person.

I don`t know about you but I have known some good looking people very often are so self obsessed about themselves and tend to be always looking in the mirror and thinking they are so gorgeous.  They are the answer to everything, or so they think. They don`t realise that PERSONALITY IS EVERYTHING, looks mean nothing

I honestly think the way to deal with them is try and laugh at them. Do a fake laugh. Something I was taught in drama. You open your mouth breathe and on the breath put the breath out. It does sound natural. Good fun and you feel yourself actually laughing for real. This is always good for you and you will feel a million times better.

I am a person and I have thought if people don`t like me the way I am it is their problem. But having said this I have developed diabetes and at the age of 58 would like to see myself in a really lovely bikini. That is my goal, realistically it won`t be this year, it will be next.

At the end of the day we don`t go up into our space ships and disappear.

My name is Linda and I really find dieting tough. It isn`t easy, I mean when those nagging hunger pains set in, you can`t just ignore them, can you? Many people have said they have got the ideal diet.  THEY DON`T FEEL HUNGRY. Well I don`t know about you but if I didn`t diet and feel hungry I would think there was something wrong with me. The thing is how do you stop the hunger pains, and most of all how do you end up not giving in and cheat. My answer to that would be planning.  So if you wrote out on a piece of paper.

 8 am
 9 am
10am
11am
12pm

Write out on a piece of paper every hour of each day. The next day put a dash the times you eat and when you feel hungry and the intensity that you feel hunger. If you plan out your days like this you can avoid them. For instance when I diet well, I make vegetable soup and that helps me. Why don`t you tell me how you avoid your hungry pains. I would be interested in hearing from you.